I have a boyfriend who is outside. He travelled last year to go and work and earn extra money because Ghana is hard. It wasn’t going to be like that but our situation changed because I got pregnant. We used to fool around a lot and stopped using condoms because it didn’t feel nice whenever we used it. Raw was better but because his pull-out game was good so I never thought I will get pregnant.
Even though we’re not married, our families said that if he decided to take care of myself and the baby, they didn’t have a problem. But him finding a job in Ghana was hard. He tried very hard but nothing was working till he won the American lottery and went abroad. He sends money every month and life for us here and has really improved.
I miss him a lot. I really do. And sometimes I miss how we spend time together and even though we do video calls it’s not enough. Even though he tries to call me and check on me every day, it’s still not enough. Fortunately, his close friend comes around and helps me to buy things I need and take out money from western union. Because he’s the one around and the one helps, we have become closer and sometimes I confide in him about my issues with his friend. I got weak one day and slept with him. It really wasn’t his fault, I begged him to sleep with me because I was desperate for the touch of a man. You people should try to understand me please. I’m not even worried about my husband because I confess to him and he will forgive me but I see what it is doing to his friend. He is so guilty that he doesn’t come around anymore and doesn’t speak to my husband as much as he used to.
I have so many regrets at this point that I don’t know what else to do. I have destroyed a friendship and I want to know what to do to fix things. Please help me fix my broken pen.
