Dear Broken Pen readers, I need your advice. In the last few months, I have watched what is rightfully mine move to someone else. The only person that I love and adore also loves and adores someone else and my mind is breaking into pieces. I grew up with Junior in the same neighborhood. Our parents were close friends and as a result, we did everything together from going to the same school to playing together. As you might imagine, they teased us of becoming a married couple in the future but no one ever took it seriously.
I’ve watched Junior grow up into a fine man. He has everything from the looks right down to the brain. I admired him from afar and gradually began developing feelings for him even though I never told him. I expected him to make the first move but nothing happened even though I could tell the signs were there. He used to take me out and was always worrying about if I had eaten or if any boy was worrying me and to me, that meant he was also into me. In the end he gathered enough courage and told me there was something he’d been wanting to ask me.
When he said that, I knew the moment had come, I was finally going to be with Junior. That’s what I was thinking till he asked me to be part of his groomsmen train for his traditional wedding. All I heard was wedding so I said yes right away, we hugged and he left. It was later that I realised I had been a fool. The pain in my chest was unbearable. He was going to marry another girl and I had accepted to dress like a man to follow his male friends in support of him.
Readers, I have cried so much even though I have tried to be happy for him. He’s my closest friend I love him too much to change my mind but I know it should be me standing opposite him next month and not behind him. The tailor has taken my measurements and my kaftan is almost ready but was thinking till he asked me to be part of his groomsmen train for his traditional wedding. All I heard was wedding so I said yes right away, we hugged and he left. It was later that I realized I had been a fool. The pain in my chest was unbearable. He was going to marry another girl and I had accepted to dress like a man to follow his male friends in support of him.
Readers, I have cried so much even though I have tried to be happy for him. He’s my closest friend I love him too much to change my mind but I know it should be me standing opposite him next month and not behind him. The tailor has taken my measurements and my kaftan is almost ready but I am willing to do anything to stop this wedding from happening. I can’t stand the thought of watching him smile because of someone else. I want to spend 2024 and forever with Junior. Please help me on what to do. Help me fix my broken pen.
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